by Whitney Barthel posted in Pregnancy

Just weeks after my best friend lost her baby I noticed my Fitbit acting up. My resting heart rate was crazy high for weeks. Thinking back to a previous article I had written, Your Fitbit can track sleep, steps, AND predict pregnancy", I thought, Nah. Hmmm. Maybe"

Then I took a test...and I saw something. It was faint, but it was there. So, I took five more throughout the next days and they got darker. But something just didn?t feel right. Ryan was ecstatic, I remained cautious. Somehow, I knew something just wasn?t quite right.
I kept testing, and the clear positives started to fade and then, three weeks after my expected period, it came. It was awful and lasted eons longer than normal, but I survived. I didn?t cry (then, anyway), telling myself, At least it was so early and you knew something was wrong from the beginning. I resumed my fitness training with renewed vigor, deciding to wait on the whole baby thing. I mean, I wrote I can't decide if I should get in shape or just have another baby weeks before it went live but still only a handful of months ago, and I was only half serious about the having-another-baby part. Both reeling from our recent losses, my best friend and I signed on for a 5k and half marathon and I felt fine, better than fine. Heck, I wasn't even going to tell anyone about my loss.
Then, my sister-in-law sent out a family text saying she was expecting -- at the same exact time I would have had my bab...