On my first Mother’s day I felt like an imposter
My husband took a beautiful picture of me and my daughter on my first Mother?s Day. I?m all smiles, holding my two-month-old little girl. It?s a really great picture. I look so happy?but it?s all a lie.
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The strength of a mother
I may be smiling, but inside I was anything but happy. I was exhausted from the lack of sleep, depleted from adjusting to being a new mom and dejected because I was having serious bonding issues with my baby. Mother?s Day is supposed to be filled with joy, but I felt none of that?and that just depressed me even more. I was starting to seriously wonder if something was wrong with me because all of my mom friends were in new-mom heaven, and I wasn?t at all. I think I was more traumatized by my labour and delivery than I was willing admit to myself back then.
I was induced because of low fluid, then went through hours of labour, hours of pushing, the baby?s heart rate dropping, fourth degree tears?the result of her being turned with, and then delivered by forceps. Finally, my daughter was born, but she had inhaled meconium and needed her lungs cleared, plus she couldn?t regulate her body temperature. The problems just didn?t end. Then, an hour after my husband went home, while I was in incredible pain from the hectic de...
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